I can do better
Have you ever cried out to God that you wanted a change within yourself and you were willing to do everything to put in the effort? Then later that day or moments later you find yourself going through the same thing that cause you to cry out to God in the first place? Yes that has definitely been me. Today I was laying on the bathroom floor hiding from my children and I just needed a moment to cry out to God begging and pleading for a better life for a better me for a change mind. As I was praying I met every word but moments later soon as I got up I couldn't help myself to be annoyed and see my children's father and felt all of the resentment that I've been trying to pray off me build up. There he was sleeping peacefully as I wake up day in and day out taking care of the kids trying to be the better version of myself everyday while he can freely come and go and I'm struggling too find an income to keep me free from feeling trapped. I yelled and said I'm about to g...